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The Waiting Game

Happy Tuesday, Everyone ๐Ÿ™‚

I hope you all had a wonderful Valentine’s Day yesterday! Whether you shared it with someone special, or treated yourself to something special!

My morning started out pretty rough…but I will get to that in a minute.

After work last night, I came home to find some goodies from my sweethearts:

^from hubby

^from Munchi

Apparently neither one of them are concerned that my thighs are starting to get dangerously close to one another when I walk ๐Ÿ˜‰

I told Michael to not get my flowers this year. He actually listened . I LOVE flowers. However, I said, If you are not going to pick them up from somewhere local, do not bother. He likes to order from 1800-FLOWERS, but there is some controversy going on with them. They are not very sustainable. He seems to think that if he doesn’t order them on the net, I will not get them in time? Whatever. I loved my cards. I never get hand picked cards from him when he sends flowers…so this was just as special to me, if not more. Of course he was thinking about sharing the goodies when he bought them though ๐Ÿ˜‰ He is not into dark chocolate like I am …obvi ๐Ÿ˜‰

Being able to enjoy those chocolates is another story…..

There is something I have not shared with you all yet.

1. Because I was devastated and not ready to talk about it when I first found out.

2. Because I still do not know what is going on.

Remember when I posted about my one hour glucose tolerance test? The one to test me for Gestational Diabetes. Well, the day after that test my heart sunk into my stomach when my doctors office called and told me the results came back “borderline-high.”

My first reaction was shock. After I hung up the phone I cried. I was devastated. As much as I KNOW it has NOTHING to do with how healthy I eat or how much I exercise (says my doctor), or how I have been trying to take care of myselfย  even MORE so than I usually do since that stick came up with two lines. How some women get that wonderful news that a baby is coming into their lives and instantly give up their gym memberships and use it as a free ticket to eat whatever they want. I still found reasons to blame myself. I wondered if I wasn’t working out enough. Maybe I shouldn’t have treated myself at all to any desserts. I should have been avoiding sweets altogether? My diet should be 95% healthy and clean. Not 80%.

Gestational diabetes has nothing to do with ANY of this.

I am still not sure if I actually HAVE gestational diabetes, but it was/IS scary nonetheless. When I called my mom, and she thought I was kidding her.

Again nothing to do with my lifestyle…but her first reaction was “you are honestly the healthiest person I know. I don’t understand it!”

Well. It’s not 100%ย  true that there are no risk factors:

*Being overweight is a risk factor (which I am not)--it is lifestyle though

*Having diabetes in your family is a risk factor (both my grandmothers had type II, but I am a firm believer that type II is mostly lifestyle or controllable).

*Having high blood pressure is a risk factor (my blood pressure is BETTER than perfect; 106/65 or around that typically)

**Being over 25 is a risk factor (I am 29)

I had a full physical a few months before I was pregnant. My numbers in EVERYTHING were stellar. My blood sugar was good low. Everything was. So you can understand why it was so upsetting to me to hear my number on this test was abnormal. Even if it’s totally out of my control (us health nuts sometimes think we can control everything…which can make things stressful)

What causes it? What is to blame?

Hormones. Pregnancy hormones can block insulin from doing its job. When this happens, glucose levels may increase in a pregnant woman’s blood. So basically, I may or may not have a hormonal imbalance. This is what I am waiting to find out.

I would be lying if I said I was not scared to death about this.

The nurse at my doctors office said quote “Your result came back a little high. Rest assured though, it was 130 and that was the minimal number we do not pass.”(Some doctors do not send for a second test unless it’s 140 she said, they feel obligated to at 130 though).

My doctor never told me to fast. He said, “they may want you to fast but if you do it in the afternoon you may not have to.” So I didn’t.

I ate oatmeal for breakfast, skipped lunch and had my test at 2pm. Could this have had something to do with it? I am not sure?

Needless to say I had to go back for a 3 hour test Valentine’s Day (yesterday) morning. It was pretty brutal.

My day yesterday:

Mom and I arrived at the hospital about 9:15am.

1. Went to registration and waited about a half hour to be seen. Give them the SAME information I gave them 17 times since the beginning of my pregnancy.

1. Go to the lab and get my FASTING blood drawn ( I didn’t eat a thing this time)

2. Drink the nastyness above.

This time, it was even more awful. Probably because it was pretty much my breakfast. It was making my nauseous. So hard to down it. Not even funny.

3. Wait 1 hour. Not allowed to walk past the coffee shop outside the lab (no “burning off calories”)

4. Go back to the lab a few feet away to get blood drawn a second time.

5. Wait another hour.

Good thing my mom always has juicy gossip for me ๐Ÿ˜‰

6. Get blood drawn for a third time.

7. Attempt to be entertained by trashy magazines for a hour. More gossip from mom.

8. Get blood drawn for a fourth and FINAL time. Hallelujah.

At this point I had a headache. I was nauseous. I was weak and shaky all at the same time. Not a fun morning.

Good thing I packed some of these to have as soon as the vampires nurses took the last vile:

My poor arms are bruised and sore. I am usually pretty brave when I get blood drawn…but FOUR times in one day! I made them alternate each time. But still. The second time on both arms was pretty rough in particular.

Mom and I head straight to Cosi for lunch when we left. The grilled sun dried tomato sandwich on multi-grain really hit the spot. I had to eat it so slow though…fasting all day is not something I am used to.

I have a doctors appointment this afternoon. I should find out the results then. I am hoping for good news . Since I first heard the test came back abnormal, I learned that it’s very common to get a false positive test result. There are a lot of errors in the first glucose test. I hope that this was the case with me (my attitude is much more positive than it was last week). I am sharing this today because I could use some positive vibes ๐Ÿ˜‰

If it happens that I am…I will be devastated, yes. But I will get through it. I will take care of myself accordingly. I will do what’s best for me and Ella. In the meantime:

The waiting game continues….

Do you feel like you can control your health, even in situations that are out of your control?

Tell me something positive–what did you get from your lovies or treat yourself to on Valentine’s Day?

Hope you all have a great day!

xxoo

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53 Comments

  • Reply allison

    Awww:(:( I hope that you are ok!! My friends sister-in-law had it both times she was pregnant and she’s super healthy, a runner, and a vegetarian so its definitely nothing you (or she) did. But even when stuff is out of your control I still want to control everything.

    February 15, 2011 at 7:00 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks. Sorry she had to go through that, but it makes me feel a little better to hear someone say it’s nothing I did.

      February 15, 2011 at 9:14 am
  • Reply susan

    Best of luck with the doctor today, thinking of you and sending prayers and positive vibes your way x

    February 15, 2011 at 7:26 am
    • Reply laury

      thanks, Susan xo

      February 15, 2011 at 9:14 am
  • Reply Keri

    Ugh! I am sorry! Something similar happened to a friend of mine and it turned out to be nothing so, try not to stress…It stinks you had to spend your Valentine’s day like that though….

    February 15, 2011 at 7:27 am
    • Reply laury

      I hope that’s the case!

      February 15, 2011 at 9:14 am
  • Reply Tina

    Aww, Laury I’m sorry to hear that you have to deal with all this! Fasted/Non-fasted glucose levels will definitely be different. I find it odd that your doctor didn’t make sure to give you better instructions on whether or not to fast. I hope the results come out better this time around! My fingers are crossed for you! Keep us posted!

    My vday was lovely! My boyfriend took me to a vegan, organic restaurant in NYC (I just posted pics), it was such a nice date! I love that your munchkin got you a vday card LOL so funny!

    February 15, 2011 at 8:53 am
  • Reply Sophia @ Raven Waves

    Best of luck! You’ll be in my thoughts all day long. Unfortunately, there are something health-related things that I don’t think we’ll ever be able to control. And it really stinks not knowing the why of having something versus not having it. Stay positive girl! It’ll all turn out okay!!

    February 15, 2011 at 9:01 am
  • Reply Kristina @ Life as Kristina

    Sending good wishes your way for this afternoons appt! NOT a fun way to spend Vday!!! I’m sorry:(

    February 15, 2011 at 9:06 am
  • Reply Angela @ Eat Spin Run Repeat

    Aww I hope everything turns out ok for you Laury. That doesn’t sound like fun at all. I’m glad you got some lovely V-day prezzies though! I was also given plenty of choccies from friends and happily had a taste of each type last night! I hope you have a better day today. ๐Ÿ™‚

    February 15, 2011 at 9:29 am
  • Reply Maria@healthydiaries

    I’m so sorry you have to go through this extra stress :-/ Don’t be so hard on yourself. Be proud of yourself knowing that you have done everything in your power to have a healthy pregnancy and there are just some things out of your control. Just take it day by day. I’ll keep you in my thoughts today, good luck!

    February 15, 2011 at 9:40 am
  • Reply Rachael

    Dealing with medical issues and possible hormonal imbalances are tough. I should know because I have been dealing with various issues in this arena for the past year.

    The biggest and hardest thing about it is the patience needed. Not just for waiting for results to come in, but also patience with the nurses who do the work. They are people to and occasionally mistakes happen.

    The best thing to do is to take a deep breath and deal with things as they come. Stress will do nothing but make these kinds of problems worse.

    http://thegracefulskinny.com/2010/12/15/i-laugh-in-the-face-of-illness/

    February 15, 2011 at 9:53 am
  • Reply Angie

    I always try to maintain my health and your blogs tips are totally helping me I especially love the post that you did about the harms of meat and dairy it was very interesting to think about. I also learned a lot that I didn’t know. I’,m sure everything will be just fine and you don’t have a hormonal imbalance. Pregnancy can take a toll on your body practice deep breathing and new rejuvenating exercises… perhaps something out of your norm for the baby! I’ll be praying for you I’m sure everything will be just fine! No use in worrying ๐Ÿ™‚

    February 15, 2011 at 10:13 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Angie. you are the sweetest ๐Ÿ™‚

      February 15, 2011 at 1:44 pm
  • Reply Charlie

    Good luck at the doctor’s this afternoon! Hope it was a false positive! I’ll be thinking of you :).

    February 15, 2011 at 10:28 am
  • Reply christy

    you will be FINE! i failed (with a capital F) the first test with a 176. yikes. but the 2nd one i passed with flying colors. that is very common because the first test is not all that accurate. didn’t sitting through that 3 hr totally suck? good thing you had your mom there!! my 3 hr was during the first sunny day in the spring and they wouldnt even let me go out to the parking lot to sit outside. all i had was a bunch of magazines and my own nervousness to keep me occupied.

    February 15, 2011 at 10:30 am
    • Reply laury

      176. Wow. Goes to show you that the first test can have errors! Thanks so much for sharing. I am staying positive. A few more hours and I’ll know…

      February 15, 2011 at 1:45 pm
  • Reply Shanna, like Banana

    Oh I’m sorry to hear this! I can imagine how frustrating it is not to know the cause or feel like you could have controlled it. But our bodies work in funny ways and you can only do your best, which you are doing!!! Keep your chin up and smiling because you can get through this =)

    The hubby and I ordered Chinese, exchanged gifts and took the puppers for a walk. Simple but nice!

    February 15, 2011 at 10:48 am
  • Reply Joslyn @ missfitbliss

    I am so sorry to hear this Laury! It’s a big wake-up call for me though. I think we health nuts do have a tendency to think we can control everything that happens with our health and our bodies, and it’s really not the case.

    Regardless of the results, I am sure you and Ella will be fine! Go relax and eat some of that chocolate now that the fasting is over!

    February 15, 2011 at 11:07 am
    • Reply laury

      Yes. us “health nuts” really can’t control EVERYTHING. We can do our best, and that all we can do. It doesn’t mean to give up on health. Just that science is not always predictable.

      February 15, 2011 at 1:46 pm
  • Reply kat

    I know you are probably so devastated, but dont be!! Like I have told you over and over, YOU are my inspiration for being a healthy and fit prego woman!! You are incredible lady, and I truly believe that you ARE extremely healthy. This is NO BIGGIE. You will be great regardless of the results. The baby will come out just as wonderful as you, ok? No worries girl, have a little faith! :):):)

    February 15, 2011 at 11:09 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Kat! I am trying!

      February 15, 2011 at 1:47 pm
  • Reply Stefanie @TheNewHealthy

    Oh my goodness, I can’t even imagine how you felt. But, your Mom is right, you are so healthy–so this has absolutely nothing to do with you. It’s totally out of your control–although I totally get the “thinking we can control everything about our health.” I’m like that too!

    I’m praying that your second test comes back positive–I remember fasting before my glucose test, so eating breakfast just may be the culprit. But again, if not–it’s totally not anything you’ve been doing!

    On a better note, that is so so cute that Munchkin got you a V-day gift–what a little sweetheart! ๐Ÿ˜‰

    February 15, 2011 at 11:32 am
  • Reply La.

    I’m sorry friend! I feel the SAME WAY about being Strep B positive. You just ARE. Someones even asked me if it was an STD. Because of this I ALSO had to be on IV during my WHOLE two days of labor. Constant antibiotic, which I prefer NOT to have. I wanted to be able to change who I WAS so that I could have birth MY WAY. As mothers we have to do the best we can and just be thankful. You are awesome and I pray that you are not because that would just be easier!

    February 15, 2011 at 11:35 am
    • Reply laury

      Aw, that sounds so tough! You are right though. We things do not always go as planned. Luckily you have a beautiful daughter to show it all worked out ๐Ÿ™‚

      February 15, 2011 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply thehealthyapron

    I’m surprised the doctor never told you to fast. We used to bring mom’s in as early as possible and they had to have fasted. That could be why.

    even if it’s still abnormal, there is an exception to EVERY rule. And I promise that you will handle it accordingly!! Don’t beat yourself up…especially in this case!! You are SO super healthy! You’ve been doing everything you can! I am sending you good vibes!

    February 15, 2011 at 11:53 am
    • Reply laury

      I am hoping it was why. If not, you should expect a few emails from me ๐Ÿ˜‰

      February 15, 2011 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply Holly @ Couch Potato Athlete

    Laury sorry to hear all of this — what a mess!

    I feel like I am in control of my health (for the most part) but there are always exceptions, which makes it tough!

    Jason bought “us” a new Blu Ray Player for V-Day. I know, kind of silly, but we needed it (ok I needed it!) ๐Ÿ™‚

    February 15, 2011 at 12:27 pm
  • Reply Kathleen @ KatsHealthCorner

    Oh no! I’m so sorry girl! I hate having my blood drawn. You are so brave! ๐Ÿ˜€ I hope those numbers were just becasue of eating the oatmeal!

    The best of luck with your appointment this afternoon!!!!

    February 15, 2011 at 12:29 pm
  • Reply Melissa

    Love that munchkin got you a gift:)

    I am sending your lots of hugs and positive vibes today! Sorry you had to go through all the yucky testing again:(
    I know even when we know something was out of our control, we we tend to want to blame ourselves. You are the MOST healthy mamma I’ve “met” and there have been a ton of babies in my friends and family circle. No joke. So don’t think that you haven’t done “enough”..you have! Big time!
    Sending you lots of love and support!!

    February 15, 2011 at 12:34 pm
    • Reply laury

      thanks for the hugs xo

      February 15, 2011 at 1:49 pm
  • Reply Katie

    This had nothign to do with what you are doing/eating!! Biology is a tricky little buggar, and as a scientist I can say that what we often think of as hard and fast “rules” are oftne just scientists hoping they got it right.

    Your little one growing inside you might have other ideas! ๐Ÿ˜‰

    February 15, 2011 at 12:39 pm
    • Reply laury

      biology is a tricky thing, huh?

      February 15, 2011 at 1:50 pm
  • Reply Julie (A Case of the Runs)

    I’m so sorry that you had to do this test again. Hoping that the first time was a fluke.

    February 15, 2011 at 12:41 pm
  • Reply Ashley (whole-ier)

    I hope everything goes well today. I’m sending you positive happy thoughts!

    February 15, 2011 at 1:21 pm
  • Reply Dani @ Body By Nature

    Aw hon, sending you lots of good thoughts!

    February 15, 2011 at 1:53 pm
  • Reply Kim

    Hey!

    The same thing happened to me. I had to sit for the 3 hour sugar test as well. Yes I was a bit freaked out, but in the end everything was fine. The worst was drinking that stuff and getting poked in the arm 4 times!

    I hope all goes well with your appointment today.

    February 15, 2011 at 2:15 pm
    • Reply laury

      Hey Kim! Thanks, doll. Yes, the poking was no fun ๐Ÿ™

      February 15, 2011 at 9:32 pm
  • Reply Mary @ Bites and Bliss

    We learned in my nutrition class that pregnant women can have temporary diabetes due to what you said about the hormones blocking insulin from doing it’s job. In most cases, it fixes itself soon after childbirth..so hopefully that’s the case if it just so happens you have it. ๐Ÿ™‚ Best wishes!

    I remember feeling that way when I discovered I had signs of osteoperosis in my lower back. I mean, I’m 20, eat super healthy, and workout a lot..how could that happen?! Turns out it was due to my ED the year before. :/ So now I’m paying..but at least it was caught early so it’s reversible.

    February 15, 2011 at 2:54 pm
    • Reply laury

      Yes, I understand that it’s temporary. It’s all about the hormones and the placenta. Nothing you can control. I remember when I was ED and got tested for osteopenia. It’s so common with eating disorders. Good thing you are on track with your health now!

      February 15, 2011 at 9:41 pm
  • Reply Kelly Iannacone

    Laury,

    I feel like I TOTALLY jinxed this for you! I am so sorry! This is exactly what happened to me. I think I even ate oatmeal too! I am certain the results will come back totally normal! So sorry you had to go through all of that! I am glad you had your Momma with you!!!

    February 15, 2011 at 3:23 pm
    • Reply laury

      Aww, Kelly. You did not jinx me! Sounds like we went through the same thing!

      February 15, 2011 at 9:42 pm
  • Reply Laura

    I had a friend who got a positive result and had to change her diet only to re test later and find out she was fine!

    I’m sending lots of positive vibes your way.

    I don’t know if I’m a believer in us being able to control our health in a situation like this that seems like its out of our control but I think the power of positive thinking can be powerful and it sure can’t hurt anything! Best thoughts and wishes to you lady!

    February 15, 2011 at 3:47 pm
  • Reply Sissy

    Schlaury
    I’m sure whatever the results are, everything will be just fine!! thinking of you today!
    XO
    Sarah

    February 15, 2011 at 3:54 pm
  • Reply Jess@atasteofconfidence

    I’m sorry you are going through this, but I am glad you are able to see that it is not your fault at all and you take wonderful care of your body. My thoughts are with you, let us know how it goes! <3

    February 15, 2011 at 4:20 pm
  • Reply Gayle

    Laury,
    I had gestational diabetes with my daughter. It was so bad, it couldn’t be controlled by even a low-carb diet, so they put me on insulin. I was’t overweight (130 lbs), ate pretty healthy, but slightly inactive and was 29 at the time. It’s caused by the placenta, not you or your shortcomings. Try to relax, but also, try not to be so judgemental about the other women who skip the gym after becoming pregnant. To each their own. This isn’t the first time you’ve made comments about that, so you come off like you think you’re better than people like us because you revolve your life around fitness.

    February 15, 2011 at 4:32 pm
    • Reply laury

      Gayle,

      I wanted to take a minute to respond to your comment. First off, I want to apologize if I came off like I was putting down other women that did not exercise during their pregnancy. Secondly, I want to say thank you for pointing it out to me.

      I sometimes make statements and do not think them all the way through. It was NEVER my intention to put myself on a pedestal for surrounding my life around fitness. That statement I made was insincere and selfish meaning I was making it to make myself feel better about how stressed I was over waiting for my results. I did mention in today’s post and the post about my first GTT that it is all about the placenta/hormones. Nothing the mother does wrong. I had a friend who had gestational diabetes recently who was very thin and fit, and I, uneducated on it prior, got freaked out over hearing that because I thought this was something I would not have to worry about. I thought I was trying to do everything to prevent health issues during my pregnancy, but I can not control everything. My doctor set me straight and told me it had nothing to do with how much I exercise, what I eat, or anything the mother does.

      You are right. To each her own. I am not perfect by any means, and try to portray that on my blog. My bigger fear in my post today was that a reader would skim it, being uneducated and see “diabetes” and judge me. I never ever thought by making that statement I would seem like I was judging other women. I wanted to personally apologize to you and I will address this to make sure my readers know this in tomorrow’s post.

      February 15, 2011 at 6:04 pm
  • Reply Angela (the diet book junkie)

    good luck with your appointment, Laury! i’ve never been pregnant so i know little about these things. but i know my girlfriend was diagnosed with gestational diabetes while she was pregnant with both her kids, and she was a very healthy girl and delivered very healthy babies. however it turns out, it’s nothing to be embarrassed about, it’s just one of those things. besides, your doctor knows you’re taking care of yourself.

    February 15, 2011 at 8:17 pm
  • Reply Pure2raw twins

    oh gosh girl, I am sorry to hear all that you have been through. Waiting for answers is never easy. I actually am going to the doctors tomorrow to get some test results back, I am nervous and scared of what the results we will be. But together we will each get through this ๐Ÿ˜‰ HUGS

    February 15, 2011 at 11:03 pm
    • Reply laury

      HUGS to you too! Hope you get a good report!

      February 16, 2011 at 12:19 am
  • Reply Leila @ Spinach and Skittles

    I hate the out of control feeling. No fun ๐Ÿ™ I hope you get good results this time around!

    February 16, 2011 at 2:34 am
  • Reply Alisa Cooks

    Aw, you poor thing, that is rough. I hope the appt went okay. It will all work out regardless! It’s definitely hard to cope with a health issue when you feel like you take such good care.

    February 16, 2011 at 12:27 pm
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