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My Pregnancy ~ First Trimester

It was Saturday, August 21st 2010:

Michael was still asleep; I woke up early, lying in bed knowing that today was the day. The day I would find out if “it worked.” We had been trying for almost a year, on and off, and I had seen that disappointing single line one too many times– 4 days earlier included.

They say to test first thing in the morning, so that’s what I did. I placed it behind me while I finished washing up in the bathroom, where I couldn’t watch it change. After what seemed like the longest three minutes of my life, I turned around and saw it, two lines, the second one was faint, but it was there!

I swung open the bathroom door, jumped up and down on the bed with the test in my hand yelling; “It worked!” It worked!” Michael, half asleep, with a huge grin on his face grabbed me in a big bear hug, kissing the side of my neck & my cheeks, I couldn’t help but have my eyes well up with tears—“We’re going to have a baby!”

About 3 weeks earlier we went out for my birthday. I had decided in May that I would not obsess anymore about getting pregnant. I tend to obsess over things. Once I get something in my head, and I want it, it can consume me. I started getting upset over the negative tests, and Michael started questioning if it was ever going to happen for us. It seems ridiculous now because we weren’t really trying for THAT  long. But anyone that has been through it knows just how long it takes to the next “cycle”–feels like an eternity. Once I relaxed, and stopped stressing out (I took on the attitude “if it happens it happens”), it wasn’t long before that stick had TWO lines.

(my best friend, me and my cousin)

Having a past of disordered eating, even though I was recovered and living a healthy, happy life for many years, I always feared pregnancy. I had been so content, confident, and the negative self talk about my body was so minimal that I did not want anything to “happen” that would rock the ED boat.

I would be lying if I said that negative self talk didn’t creep up on me in the beginning of my pregnancy. Looking at the picture above, you would think I was crazy bashing myself in the mirror about 3 weeks later, thinking my body changed drastically already. This was the first time in YEARS I started “border-line” obsessing over my figure. In 3 weeks my figure did not change that much. However, I felt like it did. I felt like I was entering this “awkward phase” where I was SO ecstatic to be pregnant, but we couldn’t tell anyone, and I felt like I instantly gained weight and lost muscle tone. I did not think I was “fat,” (hate that F word) but I just felt like I looked as though I was packing on a few, and  everyone was staring at me thinking it. The beginning of my first trimester was like when a woman is on her menstrual cycle has one of those weeks where she feels bloated, and not like herself. The funny thing was, when I was on my ‘cycle,’ I rarely ever felt “bloated” or “gross”–but I did in the beginning of my pregnancy. For the first time in years, I felt uncomfortable in my own skin. I know how irrational that sounds now. Not to worry though, that phase did not last very long. I did not let myself waste too much energy on that silliness.

My body was changing. It was a beautiful change though. It was the most amazing thing that could ever happen to me. I got over the initial “negative self-talk” phase and started to embrace my new glow. My husband was acting like he had never been more attracted to me in his life. So, I guess the initial couple of pounds I gained in the beginning did wonders for our relationship 😉

The beginning of pregnancy is tough. I am writing this post in my 31st week, so I can not compare it to the very end. However, if I were to tell you now the toughest time in my pregnancy, I would say it was the first trimester. Not only do you feel like your body is changing,  you don’t look “pregnant” yet, but you feel terrible. I was tired, oh boy was I tired. There were days (most days) where I would nap for HOURS; Michael would say to me -“now you’re not going to sleep tonight.” He was always SO wrong. I would nap for 7 hours on a Sunday afternoon, then fall asleep on the couch by 9pm and sleep through the night. Your body goes through a lot of hormonal changes in the beginning, and you NEED that sleep. I am lucky I have a job where I work early mornings, and then get a long break in the middle of the day before I go back to work late afternoon/early evening, most days. That break was crucial nap time for me a lot of days.

on a side note:

To all those women out there that work 9-5 jobs during pregnancy. I worship you!

If you already have children and going through your second, third, fourth pregnancy: YOU are a Goddess! I really can not imagine not having the peace and quiet during this pregnancy. Having the flexible schedule to take naps when I was exhausted. Honestly, you women out there that are working full time, and have children at home (mom, this was you)….you do not get enough credit. There should be statues made, and more than just one national holiday in your honor. This is a tough gig. And Ella isn’t even here yet.

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The other thing that is tough is your doctor doesn’t want to see you until you have missed two menstrual cycles. As a fitness trainer, I never specialized in prenatal fitness. I definitely learned about it, and had a few books on it, however, I never really ever had a  pregnant client. I did a lot of post-postpartum women, but not any that trained during their pregnancy. I knew from books and educational sources that it was perfectly safe to exercise during pregnancy. I also knew the  guidelines and how they had changed. Where before, you were told to keep your heart rate under a certain number. Now, they say you are pretty much at the same level you were pre-pregnancy. You just need to adjust certain things. Nothing where you risk falling, make sure you are increasing the warm-up and cool-down, keeping your core temperature cool, focusing on Rate of Perceived Exertion, the “talk test,” things like that. Basically, listen to your body.

I still worked out in the very beginning, but I took it down a bunch of notches until I saw my doctor. I was really scared since there is a high risk for miscarriage in the first trimester. I did not want to do ANYTHING to hurt the baby. Or God-forbid, worse. He reassured me that I could lye on my stomach, my back, continue to do what I was doing (in my first trimester), just to use my head and again, listen to my body. Be smart about it. I understood I was not going to do the high intensity workouts I was doing some days. But I did not have any exercises that were off limits, per say. It all depended on how I felt. I did not workout super hard through this pregnancy. I just kept moving. Some workouts were tougher, harder than others.

I was so tired in the first trimester that my workouts already changed regardless. I just didn’t have the energy to do what I was doing before. I had days where I felt better than others, and got a better workout in than other days. The point was that I was still getting there. Even if it was a few times a week, and even if it was for a shorter workout.

I was in the beginning of my training for this “marathon” –that’s what I feel like it is. I am training for the toughest marathon a woman will ever train for.

Giving birth.

As far as “morning sickness” goes. It doesn’t exist. It’s “anytime sickness.” I was pretty lucky in this department. I loaded up on the ginger root, made ginger root pops, and took a sublingual Vitamin B12 and B6 with Folic acid every morning. B6 is  good for nausea. I was definitely queasy a lot. Food disgusted me. But I only got “sick” about three times in the beginning of my pregnancy.  And I have to say, my husband was absolutely wonderful and showed a side to me he never showed me before (the do anything for me at the drop of a hat side). It was so sweet. That too has since calmed down 🙁

Since I had basically no appetite in the beginning, I really had to make sure I was getting in enough calories and enough nutrition. Smoothies were my friend. Sometimes twice a day.  I would load them with calories depending on what I ate that day. I was a bit nutty in the beginning about what I put in my body. I was always a healthy eater, but now that there was a baby involved I took it to a whole other level. I have calmed down and lightened up since (still eating very well, just don’t stress over eating things that are not the most nutritious from time to time).

My biggest complaint in the beginning–sore boobies. I can not even describe to you how sore and tender those ladies were. My husband could not even hug me (with his big muscular barrel chest) for at least 6 weeks. It hurt to put on a shirt, it hurt to do any type of bouncing movement, it hurt when air hit them. And I am not “blessed” in that area at all. Maybe that was why. They doubled in size, I feel. Not fun.

What changes does your body go through in the beginning:

Breast tenderness and swelling: Like I said above, be prepared for the sore boobies. A surge in estrogen and progesterone signals your breasts to grow and produce colostrum, a pre-breast-milk mixture of water, protein, white blood cells and protective antibodies that will provide early nutrition for your new baby. The pain and tenderness went away by the second trimester for me. Although, I think those girls are still growing.

Increase in blood volume: Your body is now pumping blood not only for you, but for your baby too! You will start producing more blood to meet the demands of you and your baby. By the end, you would have increased your blood volume by 30-50%, which means your body is working harder than it has ever before. I found myself getting tired earlier when I workout. It was a big wake-up call for someone that was very fit before. It is the strangest thing, exercising, doing something you breezed through before, only to feel out of shape and tired! This isn’t because I was out of shape. It’s because of how hard my body is working, even in the beginning. This is why it’s so important to take care and listen to your body when you exercise. I have had a couple episodes where I felt good, pushed myself in the gym, then suddenly got hot, tired and dizzy. This was a big reality check for me. I can’t exercise as hard as I used to. Not even close, most days.

Increased Heart Rate: Due to the increased blood volume, your heart works harder. Your resting pulse may increase as much as 10 beats per minute during the first trimester. This is another factor to consider when exercising. This is where listening to your body comes in. Overexertion can cause an irregular or fast heart beat. This is a cue that you should gradually start slowing down. Allow your HR to recover.

Weight Gain: I put on about 4 pounds before I even went to my first doctors appointment. Prepare yourself for this change. This can be a terrifying thing for someone that has always worked hard to stay fit. If you are sick A LOT in your first trimester, this may not happen as quickly. But prepare yourself regardless. This is a change, a good, healthy change that your body is going through. If you are eating healthy, exercising moderately, and listening to your body, it will do what it needs to do. I felt like my body gained weight the way it needed to. My doctor is very pleased with it.I can’t say it’s not scary stepping on that scale every visit. However, I look at it like it’s for health purposes. My baby needs me to gain that weight. I am eating well, not depriving myself of the “fun” stuff though. Trying to exercise regularly. The weight will fall where it may.

“Dieting” or watching what you are eating, and watching the scale obsessively  is not healthy. Gaining too little weight can be dangerous and lead to health problems and premature birth. On the other hand, allowing yourself an unlimited amount of calories and being completely sedentary may bring on even scarier health problems. Just like in life, finding a healthy balance during pregnancy is crucial.

(^this was the end of my first trimester.  I actually thought I was “showing.” Delusional, I know. Or wishful thinking?)

I could not WAIT to start showing.

The first trimester was “hurry up and wait” for me. I wanted to wear a big sign that said “I’M PREGNANT!” Your body changes so much, and you feel like you want it to show, for real. As soon as I had a little bump I felt myself hyper-extending my low back at times to “stick it out.” I am a crazy person. Don’t mind me 😉

There’s no sympathy in the first trimester (except from the select few that know). I felt the crappiest then, but you don’t start getting favored at restaurants or the grocery store until you’re about 7 months in. No fair :/

If you want to read about how we announced it to our families, check out my post when I announced my pregnancy on the blog. I started playing a guessing game every Thursday in September. Revealing what the big announcement was here 🙂

This was my story, along with a few facts and figures. Stay tuned for the second and BEST trimester ever. This was the time I never felt better and more beautiful in my life.

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February 20th-26th

The goal of NEDA Week is to raise awareness about eating disorders. Educate people that ED’s are illnesses, not lifestyle choices.

If  you missed yesterdays post, or Fridays, I have been taking time each day to recognize NEDA Week. Whether it’s promoting Self-Love and Positive Body Image or bringing you some facts.

Today, I wanted to take time to talk about some ED myths…

Myth: People with eating disorders will eat normally / recover when they choose to do so. (Dr. Ravin)

Fact: This myth implies that EDs are willful behavior and that a patient can simply make a choice to recover. Thus, it blames people with EDs for having an illness that is not their fault.  Most people with EDs are not able to eat normally on their own; they require significant outside support (nutritionist, parental support in refeeding, residential tx, etc.) in order to normalize their eating habits.

Myths from Women who have been there:

“People think that people with ED are selfish. Often, they are excessively empathetic. That the mother/family is to blame, maybe or maybe not, but the individual is important too. That you can’t recover. You can. That weight rather than the eating patterns are important. I’ve seen normal-weight bulimics in MUCH worse physical conditions than anorexics.” -Sarah

read more myths and facts here.

I hope you will do at least 1 thing today to promote positive body image…either for yourself or to help others!

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Thank you for taking the time to read my pregnancy story!

If you are pregnant, or have been…what do you think was the toughest time in your pregnancy? The best time?

xxoo

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60 Comments

  • Reply Lauren @ Hungry Dancer

    Love this post! I am no pregnant, nor plan to be anytime soon..but this information is full of things I never knew!! You are gorgeous and I’m glad you didn’t let your body issues get the best of you!! So happy for you and your family!!

    February 22, 2011 at 4:59 am
  • Reply Amy @ ChicFitness

    I always love reading your posts. I think your honesty with your thoughts/feelings throughout your pregnancy will help a lot of women.
    Your NEDA week snippets are spot-on for me too. When I was gong through it I always feared my family and friends would think I was the most selfish person ever when I just wanted then to love me. I knew I was acting selfish but there was nothing I would do to stop it- it was as if I was living two separate lives at times. But, that’s behind me now. People need to know though, that its not about vanity.

    February 22, 2011 at 7:18 am
  • Reply Efka

    I was one of those “lucky” persons who felt bad all pregnancy. I mean first couple weeks were fine and then it started, could not eat, throwing up, nauseous, all this til the birth of the baby. First time + second time, Doctors just said its how my body reacts to this little “parasite” So we had to deal with it. My hubby was wonderful, but thinks that we cannot take another one.
    All the best to you and your babies.

    February 22, 2011 at 7:19 am
    • Reply laury

      Aww, that’s awful. I am so sorry it was so tough for you. Every person has a different experience. I hear each pregnancy is different too. It’s a shame yours wasn’t the second time around 🙁

      Your experience sounds like my mom. She was SO sick the ENTIRE pregnancy with me. She was hospitalized for dehydration a few times because she was throwing up so much.

      February 22, 2011 at 1:40 pm
      • Reply Efka

        Yeah, same here, in and out in hospital to et some fluids in. But still. It was soooo worth it. Just hoping my baby girl takes after my my mom , who had zero sickness and no problems at all.

        February 23, 2011 at 7:53 am
  • Reply susan

    What a beautiful honest post, so happy for you that you’re pregnant and going to have a darling baby girl very soon. You’ve come so far and you’re really minding and looking after yourself and baby Ella. Well done!

    February 22, 2011 at 7:23 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Susan!! Can’t wait! XO

      February 22, 2011 at 1:41 pm
  • Reply Keri

    Wow, this post was SO INTERESTING. Thank you for sharing! And love that dress you are wearing in the photo!

    February 22, 2011 at 8:03 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks! Can’t wait til I can wear them again 🙂

      February 22, 2011 at 1:41 pm
  • Reply Sophia @ Raven Waves

    This was such a great post! You’re so honest, and I’m so happy everything worked out for you! Now you’re going to have a beautiful baby girl!! 🙂

    February 22, 2011 at 9:01 am
  • Reply Angela @ Eat Spin Run Repeat

    I love how beautifully honest this post is, Laury. I’m so excited for you to have this baby – you’re going to be a fabulous mom!

    February 22, 2011 at 9:11 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks! I hope so!!!

      February 22, 2011 at 1:46 pm
  • Reply Tina

    “I am a crazy person, don’t mind me.” Haha Silly lady! I love this post! There are so many aspects of pregnancy that I never knew about luckily this great post and Tina’s (FF&F) posts are preparing me for when the day comes [it will be a LONG, LONG, time from now! ;)]

    February 22, 2011 at 9:23 am
    • Reply laury

      Yes, Tina has some great posts too! Lots of them! Ha, “a LONG long time from now…”

      February 22, 2011 at 1:42 pm
  • Reply thehealthyapron

    GREAT recap Laury! Pregnancy is SUCH an amazing journey! I loved reading every minute of this post, as I am always so curious about what it’s like! I can’t wait for it to be my turn and I feel better knowing that even though you struggled a bit with the weight gain thing, you got through it!

    With the ED thing, people always ask me if I ever got sickly thin during my ED. If you looked at me, I think I looked like I do now! Maybe even a little BIGGER! I was struggling with undereating, overeating, overexercising. So much stuff. To say it is osmething you can just get over is crazy because if that were true, I wouldn’t STILL struggle from time to time! The mind is a powerful thing!

    February 22, 2011 at 9:27 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Erin 🙂

      I can relate to you. When I was my sickest I probably weighed more than I did pre-pregnancy. However, I was not healthy and did not look healthy. My skin, hair, nails, everything did not look good. You don’t have to look emaciated to be sick. I was in-patient with girls average weight but took over 100 laxatives a day, just to give an example.

      February 22, 2011 at 1:45 pm
  • Reply Nicole@makinggoodchoices

    I love this post Laury…as I do all of yours!
    I loved reading the beginning journey of your pregnancy, it’s really amazing. I’m sure I will have lots of questions for you when I am in your position one day!

    February 22, 2011 at 9:47 am
    • Reply laury

      Aww, thanks 🙂 You know I am here to answer what I can!

      February 22, 2011 at 1:45 pm
  • Reply Dani @ Body By Nature

    Such a great story! Congrats girl, you’re going to be such a good Mom!!

    February 22, 2011 at 10:18 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks so much, Dani 🙂

      February 22, 2011 at 1:46 pm
  • Reply Kat

    OMG a,azing post. Thank you so much for all this information!! Im totall saving this post as a reference guide 🙂

    February 22, 2011 at 10:23 am
    • Reply laury

      thanks, girl!

      February 22, 2011 at 1:47 pm
  • Reply Shanna, like Banana

    Thank you for sharing such an insightful post Laury! Your honesty is refreshing and I value your viewpoint.

    We are sort of “trying” as well but I’m “trying” not to obsess 😉 because then it will never happen.

    When the day finally comes, I hope I can embrace all the little changes. And if not, just sleep through them…haha!

    February 22, 2011 at 10:27 am
    • Reply laury

      All I will say is have fun trying 😉

      Yes, you will sleep better than you ever did in the beginning. The end, I hear not so much.

      February 22, 2011 at 1:47 pm
  • Reply Holly @ Couch Potato Athlete

    Laury I love reading about your pregnancy — although Jason and I are not planning on having a child any time soon, I still like to learn about it to hopefully feel prepared when we do decide to try.

    February 22, 2011 at 11:26 am
  • Reply Maria@healthydiaries

    I always love you posts about your pregnancy. Funny thing is I’m not pregnant and never have been! Maybe in the near future 😉 Can’t wait for your post on your second trimester! Thanks fo being so honest cause I feel like there are a lot of things women do not express about being pregnant.

    February 22, 2011 at 11:33 am
  • Reply Lisa @ Healthy Diaries

    You’re going to be such a great mommy Laury! I’ve never been pregnant before but hopefully I will be when we start trying in 6 months!!

    I look forward to your post everyday! 🙂

    February 22, 2011 at 12:08 pm
    • Reply laury

      Thanks! Happy trying 🙂

      February 22, 2011 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply Morgan

    I love the way that you write. Its so honest, and I felt like you practically were taking words out of my mouth about my pregnancies. I really think the very beginning and the VERY end are kind of torturous. I get so sick at the beginning, and so uncomfortable at the end and I always think I cant do it again in those phases. But I have had 3 so there you go. i must have forgot. 🙂 Just prepare in the last few weeks for no sleep due to dicomfort1 its rough bu you get the best prize at the end ever! There are no words to describe the birth of a child. It will be the most special moment for you and Michael! It changes a man. Woman prepare themselves but men, when they see their little babies they are in LOVE and they change! They stand there like proud papas, like “thats mine?! ” with a big old smile. Its so cute! I loved watching my husband with our newborns. So sweet!
    I love that you are highlighting ED this week. So many women struggle with this around me even if they do not have an ED they struggle with body image problems and you are helping so many people by just putting out good information, giving your honesty, and positiveness (is that even a word?). Sometimes we have our own life experiences to be able to touch and help so many other people. I really believe this! You are doing more for others than you eve realize!
    I cant wait to see that baby of yours!

    February 22, 2011 at 12:24 pm
    • Reply laury

      This comment totally made me cry. Just thinking about Michael holding our little girl and seeing him melt. Thanks a lot 😉 I can’t wait but trying to cherish these last few weeks of quiet and “me” time. Because this is the end of it!

      And yes, there are so many women struggling with body image issues. Especially in the blog world. Thanks for what you said, I really hope to reach out and inspire women out there to embrace their beauty and stop the “fat” talk!

      February 22, 2011 at 1:51 pm
  • Reply Julie (A Case of the Runs)

    Thanks for being honest with us and sharing the experience through its ups and downs. You’re doing just fine. =)

    February 22, 2011 at 12:54 pm
  • Reply Kelly

    Hey Laury!

    Very fun and exciting post! Out of curiosity, I am wondering if you remember how pregnant you were (or what week you were) when you started feeling ill? What did you think of Big Love this week?
    -Kelly

    February 22, 2011 at 1:14 pm
    • Reply laury

      Hmmm… I think the nausea really kicked in maybe week 7? I wish I kept a journal, so mad that I didn’t to remember dates. It was mid-way through. Think I started really feeling myself again around 14 or 15 weeks.

      I did not see Big Love on Sunday. I watched it from the week before. It’s definitely getting better. Nikki is on my nerves BIG time. My client told me yesterday that I HAVE to watch before I see her tomorrow, haha. She said if Nikki is annoying to me now, it’s going to be worse? It must have been good though 🙂

      February 22, 2011 at 1:54 pm
      • Reply Kelly

        Yes you will totally have to watch it, so you can chat about it with your client! Super crazy!

        Thanks for the guesstimate! I am just starting week #6 with baby #4, CRAZY, right!?

        February 22, 2011 at 2:48 pm
        • Reply laury

          Oh wow!!! Congrats!!! As I said in this post…YOU are my hero 🙂 Feel well!!!

          February 22, 2011 at 3:28 pm
          • Kelly

            That is what is freaking me out right now, I am feeling well!?!?!? Anyway, I am loving the pregnancy series, it is right up my alley! Huge motivation to continue the workouts and super healthy eating!

            February 23, 2011 at 10:31 am
          • laury

            I will not even say it but knocking on wood for you now 😉

            February 23, 2011 at 3:45 pm
  • Reply Jessica@Fruit and Veggie Tales

    You are a really great story teller, I enjoyed reading this post! Pregnancy is pretty amazing! I was really obsessive about my weight and body changes during my first pregancy. After going through all of that and having this wonderful little person in my life….the second pregnancy was much less obsessive! 🙂 You know what’s coming and how amazing it is that your body grew that little being! You look fabulous in allof your pictures and I bet you can’t wait to hold that little lady! Congrats! ~the hardest part for me was being so tired all the time, especially during the second pregnancy because you can’t take a nap when you want!

    February 22, 2011 at 3:10 pm
    • Reply laury

      Yes, i can not wait for that part 🙂 It has to be So tough the second time around when you have a little one to care for. My husband wants to go “back to back” but I don’t think he understand what he is wishing for.

      February 22, 2011 at 3:29 pm
      • Reply Jessica@Fruit and Veggie Tales

        haha actually, I think it would have been easier to go back to back! It was really hard being pregnant when my daughter was small enough that she needed to still be carried and ‘cared for’ a lot but big enough that it hurt! lol I think it would be easier to go right into it with a smaller baby. Then if you are breastfeeding too, you don’t have the problem of having to buy tons of different bras, you just keep the same ones until you are done with all of that! (you don’t have to tell him I said that though!)

        February 23, 2011 at 8:47 pm
  • Reply Caree @ Fit-Mama

    My first trimesters with both pregnancies were horrible!! Cramping (I even bled a little with my first and SWORE I was having a miscarriage), extreme nausea, sooo tired that I felt like I could barely do anything (and yes, its VERY hard to work full time AND have a toddler with baby#2), I don’t know how mamas have anymore than that while working unless they just have the most wonderful pregnancies. And the first trimester is definitely really awkward, I couldn’t wait to look like I was pregnant instead of just fat!

    February 22, 2011 at 5:55 pm
  • Reply Angela (the diet book junkie)

    ah Laury, i’ve always loved how open and honest you were about your pregnancy. (the ups AND the downs.) i’ve never been pregnant, i always wondered how many months into it you could still run. do you just listen to your body or is there a certain month doctors tell you to stop?

    February 22, 2011 at 6:49 pm
  • Reply Carrie

    I can totally relate to your post! I have had some eating issues in the past and while I was so happy to become pregnant, I was scared I would begin to struggle with some of my old thoughts. Even prior to becomming pregnant, I can’t say I was fully comfortable with my body/weight. I had gotten to a better place though and the thought of going through such a drastic body change scared me. On top of that, I felt so guilty..like I was the only woman to ever feel concerned with it. All the other mothers I knew seemed so calm and took things in stride. I was comfortable with gaining weight, but have been focusing a lot on exactly how much I will gain overall. I really want to be in the 25-35 range, which is what is recommended. Growth spurt weeks are hard because I am trying not to put on too little or too much. I know I am puting much too much thought into it!

    Oh and I totally hear what you are saying with the first trimester. My sister had warned me I would get “thicker.” That is exactly how I felt…it just seemed like any tone or shape I had was gone, but there was no distinguishable bump yet.

    I’d be lying if I said I am already not worried about losing the weight after the baby is born. 🙁 I feel selfish for feeling that way. I told my husband that it is like knowing that I have something really big to accomplish..and I just want to get started, but can’t for another 4 months. Do you ever worry about losing the weight and/or getting your body back to normal? I love reading your blog…you’re a couple months ahead of me, but it is awesome to read about someone going through some of the same experiences. Can’t wait to read your post preg. posts!! 🙂

    February 22, 2011 at 8:31 pm
    • Reply laury

      Everything you are feeling is totally normal. Don’t feel guilty or selfish at all.

      The beginning is SO tough, feeling “thick” but nothing to show for it as far as a baby bump goes. I do worry very much about losing the baby weight. I try not to get myself worked up over it though. It’s in the back of my mind all the time. I went through so many stages with my body and the past 4 years I have been happiest with it. I always fear that it’s going to be so difficult to get back to that, and I will be unhappy again. It’s normal. I am going to try and take it in stride though. Hopefully, as everyone says, once Ella is here none of that will matter to me! I will just go on being healthy, exercising, and just be happy, whether I fit back into my jeans or not. I can’t say that right now I don’t have those same exact fears. Just try and not let it consume you.

      I am currently just going with it. I agree, those growth spurt weeks are tough. My doctor actually laughed at me last appointment. I wasn;t asking this because I was obsessing over the weight…but I asked him if it was OK that I gained 3 pounds in 2 weeks. He said “If all my patients walked in the door looking like you and ate like you did and took care of themselves, my job would be MUCH easier. It’s a struggle sometimes.” Try not to get too hung up on the scale. I am no expert in post-partum, but I am a firm believer that once you relax and don’t obsess, your body will do what it needs to do. Weight loss included. No need to get your stress hormones all worked up over a number. Just be healthy and let your body do it’s thing.

      February 22, 2011 at 8:50 pm
  • Reply melissa @ the delicate place

    you are absolutely glowing in that dark red dress! stunner 🙂 this was an interesting read and i’m glad that you opened up and were honest about things that probably loads of women *think* but never vocalize. bravo to you!

    February 22, 2011 at 9:22 pm
  • Reply Jenny (Fit Girl Foodie)

    This was such an informational post. It’s hard for women like us to accept gaining weight and not be able to control it. I for one like to think that i have the power over how i look. If i want to lose i can, if i want to gain i can, its one of the few things i feel i have control over and once u get pregnant its thinking of your body in terms of housing another being and not being yours anymore. Good for you girl, I hope I’ll never forget these motivational words in the future 🙂

    February 22, 2011 at 11:33 pm
  • Reply Kristina

    LOVE this post…i’m bookmarking all these blog posts for whenever I get pregnant…and then i’ll be stalking your email. I love how real and honest you are…it’s so refreshing!

    February 22, 2011 at 11:46 pm
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    Love the pregnancy story! I think I would rather enjoy sleeping that much, but with no responsibilities outside of sleeping, of course 😉
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    Thank you for sharing your incredible pregnancy journey so far:)
    I’ve learned so much!!

    PS that red dress is awesome..looks awesome on you!
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    Yay! I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading about your pregnancy. Oh, your baby is going to be so fabulously LOVED! Already is. I agree with loads of folks above, you are so real and it is amazing. Did you delete me? I haven’t been getting your posts in my email like I did for one blessed week!

    February 24, 2011 at 11:45 pm
  • Reply Mary @ Bites and Bliss

    I loved reading this post!! I was glued to your story, it was so sweet and real. I felt your anxiety through it all..it must have killed you not to be able to scream it to the world right away..you know, not having the baby bump just then or anything. Ahhh, thank you for sharing!

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