All I can say is……WOW! I have the BEST readers EVER! I can’t thank you all enough for cheering me up
Thanks to having my blog as an outlet to vent, and all the wonderful comments I received, I am feeling a lot better today. Sharing things like that is always so therapeutic for me because I KNOW so many of you go through similar things and can relate. I also like to show you all that I am only human and although have had an AMAZING pregnancy overall, there were ups and downs. As insignificant as they may seem to me in time 😉
Things I did to cheer myself up:
– I went to the gym yesterday and got through 20 minutes of cardio, and a few sets of squats and lunges and a couple triceps extensions before I almost passed out from how HOT it was in my gym. For some reason they do not think that it being 80 plus degrees in there validates putting on the air conditioning.
– Got to the market and stocked up on a few days worth of fruit and veggies. I was SURE that something was going to happen last week so I haven’t been to the store much. This was probably a factor in my recent carbo-loading, poor food choice episode that lead to a mini meltdown. I tried to get things that Michael could just grab and bring to the hospital so they don’t go bag like pieces of fruit, or my trail mix. I was worried last week that I would buy all my produce and it get wasted if I went into labor. Just a couple items to get me by. The veggies went into my Quinoa last night 🙂
labor inducing pineapple 😉
-Read your comments…this cheered me up the most 🙂
I am sure I will have more moments…but don’t we all! Like I said, I am having mixed feelings about the pregnancy ending. I want to meet her SO bad and GAWD I am B O R E D! I feel kind of guilty that I stopped working but know I am completely useless to my clients at this point. I am not 100% there, and not feeling great so it’s tough for me to be the best trainer I can be. If I am getting pains I can’t always hide it and I don’t want them to be concerned about me during a session. It’s all about THEM. However…I am getting a little restless and going a little CRAZY! I need something to do with my life while I embrace these last moments of pregnancy.
Speaking of….my girl Morgan made the BEST suggestion for when you are feeling a pity party coming on. 😉 A gratitude journal. I will share today my gratitude based on my meltdown yesterday:
*I am grateful for my husband who helped me to create a miracle
*I am grateful for a body that is healthy and able to carry a life inside of it.
*I am grateful for this experience & what is about to come.
*I am grateful that I have this time to relax and embrace the last moments of my pregnancy, as uncomfortable as it may be. There are women who are not as fortunate as me to experience this and I should feel thankful for every single moment.
*I am grateful for the most adorble, sweetest, smartest kitty in the world who KNEW I wasn’t feeling myself yesterday and decided to come nap with his sister for a couple hours like a little cutie pie. 🙂 He just knows.
On to the next order of business….
So, I had a meltdown, now I am over it. However…I am STILL bored. The kind of bored where I don’t really want to DO anything or GO anywhere necessarily. Or use too much brain power for that matter…but still need something to do. A simple project, a good book, a new TV series to get addicted to. However, there’s NOTHING I am interested in watching and no books I can get into. I own an INSANE amount of books but I rarely read for fun. They are ALL nutrition and health books (and recipe books), and lately it’s been pregnancy books galore.
Don’t think I am TOTALLY lame but my “reading for fun soul mate” was totally The Twilight Saga. I read all 4 of those books in like 2 months and re-read them 3 times because I couldn’t find anything like it. I enjoy Jennifer Weiners books, and a bunch of others I can’t really think of now…but can’t find anything that TOTALLY sucked me in like The Cullens did. Totally pathetic, I know.
I can compare it to when Michael and I were first dating. Then we broke up for a while and I went out on a bunch of dates over those few months. No matter how charming, good looking, successful, or whatever the outside world saw these guys as…they were NEVER anything compared to my Michael 🙂 . No one was good enough, or measured up. (He will kill me for getting corny like this on here about him).
That’s how I feel about all the “fun” books I have read since Twilight. Okay, now I sound totally pathetic using that analogy, haha…or I made you laugh. Hopefully the second 😉
So…with that in mind, and my “high standards”…give me some book suggestions! Please. 🙂 Nothing with animals dying in the end. I can’t handle that, and nothing too vulgar like The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. “The Help” was on my short list of thing I wanted to read. Not sure if I can get into it though. Just need something to occupy me, take my mind off waiting and help me to enjoy this time to myself. I am headed to Barnes and Noble today because Amazon may not be quick enough if she gets here this week! Will need something to pass time in the hospital too!
Thanks in advance 😉