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Eggplant for Labor?

Good Morning, All. I hope everyone that celebrates Easter had a happy one!

 

 

My Nona made an amazing spread yesterday including these veggies stuffed with brown rice. She knows the way to me heart 😉

 

I was just reading yesterday how eggplant is supposed to induce labor. We only stayed at Easter dinner briefly yesterday because I was feeling so hot, crampy and uncomfortable…but still no labor. Anyone that follows me on twitter may have seen the #stillpregnant updates 😉 I THOUGHT I was getting contractions, like REAL contractions when we got home from Easter (thought the eggplant did it). Turned out they didn’t come back. Just the same crampy stuff.  False alarm.

 

I have had virtually EVERY SINGLE sign that labor is coming VERY soon except for my water breaking and true timed contractions. Every single one (sparing the details). But still, no baby. I’ve said before I have mixed feelings about my pregnancy ending. Yesterday I had a little meltdown, which I will tell you about in a minute. Michael and I both feel like we are being held hostage at this point. I think our families do too which makes me feel bad. The anticipation and not knowing is the worst. Not to mention I am SO bored. There is nothing to do, and I don’t feel like doing anything that requires too much brain power. It’s a weird cycle.

 

Aside from having ALL the labor signs since last Tuesday…I have also worked hard to try and move things along.

 

Monday: Good workout in the gym

Tuesday: Another good workout. Massage from a therapist who is a trained doula and knows the trigger points to induce labor.

Wednesday: 2 separate half hour walks. Lots of squatting.

Thursday: Long walk and Prenatal Yoga with lots of Squats

Friday: Half hour walk, even though I was EXTREMELY crampy and sore from the day before.

Saturday: Rented the Rug Doctor and cleaned my filthy white carpets that I couldn’t STAND the sight of anymore. Boy, that was fun…it exhausted me the most. And the thing barely worked and ran out of water every 5 minutes. Michael dealt with filling it for me. I ended up scrubbing some spots on my hands and knees with the rubber gloves on.

FYI–No worries, all the windows were open and all the fans were on the chemicals were not bad. We got the pet friendly formula too (not toxic). I have NO chemicals in the house, I clean with all eco-friendly stuff…but nothing has worked on these carpets and they got so bad because I am so nutty about the no chemicals in this house. This has 1/2 cup of solution for 1 gallon of water so it really isn’t too bad. At least my carpets look better now. I was SURE my water would break after doing this.

Sunday: Planned to go for a walk…had Easter at 1, wanted to go in the afternoon. It was 85 degrees out and I was EXTREMELY uncomfortable. By the time the sun started going down it stormed 🙁 This was when I had a meltdown….

Emotional Breakdown/ Confessions

It’s so hard for me to write this because I am in such an emotional place right now. Yes, I am 39.5 weeks pregnant and it is to be expected. I am lucky I haven’t had too many breakdowns throughout my pregnancy. I felt I was being a good role model to all of the women out there who have suffered from body image issues. Showing them that you CAN have a healthy mentality during pregnancy. That you CAN do it and be happy. This week though, I feel I am failing at that.

Truth is, these past couple weeks have been so hard for me. I have managed to be mentally healthy the majority of my pregnancy in terms of my body image and weight gain. Intelligently, I know when I step on that scale and I gained 5 pounds in 2 weeks that it’s mostly fluid. I feel ridiculous admitting that at this point the top of my list of reasons to want to go into labor like NOW is the fear of stepping back on that scale Tuesday when I go to the doctor. How it’s going to make me feel. I don’t even know if it’s the scale that bothers me. I just feel big everywhere. I made the BIG mistake of trying to wear one of my flowy maxi dresses that I though I could get away with wearing yesterday, only to see I can’t even step into it. I used to look like a hanger in it, it’s so free flowing. Now, snug and tight around my hips when it’s an A-line maxi dress. Why did I do that to myself? I am almost 10 months pregnant! I have No maternity clothes for 85 degree weather and I am SO hot and uncomfortable I thought, maybe I can get away with something A-line. No way.

I have managed to STILL stay active every day but my appetite has soared this past week and a half. I feel like I have no self control. I guess you can call it carbo-loading for labor. One of my birthing books actually recommends doing it right before labor, as if anyone KNOWS when that will happen. Now I see just how smart my body is I guess, knowing it needs to load up for the marathon that is giving birth.  I read about this after not understanding WHY I couldn’t stop eating carbs and sugar (it made me feel temporarily better). A few weeks ago I was craving nothing but light foods, thinking this is great..I will transition into post-baby eating nice and light. Now, not so much. I am eating dessert pretty much daily. Three times yesterday which was ridiculous. You would think after seeing the rapid weight gain I would be making a point to fill up on nutrient-rich foods, but for some reason I have eaten worse these past week and a half than I have my entire pregnancy. Still active, just can’t control the fork. I hate how it’s made me feel. I still can’t stop it though.

I was in such a great place with my body these past 4 years, and more than half of my pregnancy. I fear that it’s going away now and will only be worse after I give birth because there is no longer an “excuse” to have some extra junk in my trunk. I fear that I will be SO exhausted being a new mom that I won’t have the energy to workout as hard as I’ll need to get back to my pre-baby “happy place.” I fear that I will not have the energy to take the time to prepare clean, healthy meals. That I will just subject myself to letting Michael bring me home take out. Not that I make bad choices when we do eat out, but I know I will need to prepare my own meals 85% of the time to be back where I was, and be the healthiest I can be. I fear feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. I fear I am going to struggle getting back to where I want to be like I struggled for so many years with my weight and my body. All of this may mean nothing. Once Ella is here this may all be in the back of my mind, the least of my worries. Right now, in this moment I am having major anxiety. I just needed to get this off my chest. I hope it doesn’t discourage anyone. Michael keeps telling me to stop is and just embrace my last days of being pregnant. I wish it were that simple.

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I actually feel better that I typed this wordy post about my meltdown. So, I leave you today on a positive note. I am hanging in…just a little restless and anxious about many things, obviously. But I am strong and will be just fine 🙂

 

 

Have a great day! Today, the 25th, is the same day I was born (July 25th), so maybe Ella will make her appearance. As I said before I was born the 25th and the Royal Wedding was the 29th. If Ella is born today she will be in the same scenario. Not getting my hopes up. Feels like it’s never going to happen at this point, but it’s definitely inevitable 😉 even if it’s not today.

 

 

Anyway…how was your holiday for those that celebrated?

What’s the weather like where you are?

 

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71 Comments

  • Reply Keri

    HANG IN THERE!!!! Any day now!!!! You are so strong! I can’t believe you are still working out!!! Good for you!! Ella will be here SOON! xoxo

    April 25, 2011 at 7:47 am
    • Reply laury

      thanks 🙂

      April 25, 2011 at 1:58 pm
  • Reply Katie @ Finding My Om

    You are so beautiful! Inside and out… hang in there. Before you know it, you’re beautiful baby girl will be here and since you’ve been taking such awesome care of your body during the pregnancy, I’m sure it’ll bounce right back in no time. 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 7:59 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, girl 🙂

      April 25, 2011 at 1:44 pm
  • Reply Angela @ Eat Spin Run Repeat

    Ella is certainly taking her time! 🙂 Don’t worry Laury, you can do this, and even though I’ve never been pregnant I’m sure you will start feeling like your old self soon. It can’t be easy carrying around another person inside of you and I can only imagine that it must be difficult emotionally, physically and psychologically. Hang in there! 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 8:07 am
    • Reply laury

      It is hard, but I know will all be worth it! Thanks!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:59 pm
  • Reply thehealthyapron

    Oh Laury! I’m so sorry to hear about your meltdown. Believe me, I’m at that point with myself right now and I’m not even pregnant! I’m convinced ED thoughts never truly go away, especially when weight gain comes in to the picture and you feel like you’ve lost control of your own body, it just seems to spiral back old thoughts. I know that you need to listen to michael…embrace these last moments, feel excited about the prep for your new baby, but there is still that lurking thought of getting your body back! I honestly believe it will fall in to place for you though! Once Ella gets here you are no longer going to think of yourself first anymore. But the weight WILL go away! I have so many friends who panicked about such things as well but literally within 2 months I would have never known they ever had a child!! Keep your chin up Laury! You are beautiful and SO healthy no matter what! You can get through this rough spot, as I know it’s a rough point for EVERY preggo mom!! Hang in there!!

    April 25, 2011 at 8:13 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Erin. I know you know how it is…even if you haven’t experienced pregnancy yet! Thanks so much….you made me feel better!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:45 pm
  • Reply Holly @ The Runny Egg

    Laury sorry to read about your meltdown! You have done so great during your pregnancy and I think you have shown what a healthy pregnancy looks like! All of the fears you have stated are all things that I have thought about — and I’m not pregnant or planning to be for a while!

    I truly think that once Ella is here you’ll be able to tackle these issues one by one. You are a strong person and I know you can do whatever you want to do!

    April 25, 2011 at 9:01 am
    • Reply laury

      I am hoping…thanks, Holly!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:58 pm
  • Reply susan

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling shitty and just want Ella to be born. I can only imagine that the last few weeks and hopefully just days for you now must be really hard. You’re nearly there though and you’ll have Ella very soon in your arms. Keep the chin up and keep going.

    As for the body image, I think you’ve done so well during your pregnancy and you’ve been so strong and you’ve fed your body and looked after yourself. I’m guessing the stress of Ella not being born yet and the heat, tiredness and uncomfortableness and throw in the hot weather isn’t helping matters. I think your worries are totally natural at this time but I know you’ll have positive feelings about yourself and your body when Ella is born and ultimately you’re going to be a wonderful mother.

    April 25, 2011 at 9:06 am
  • Reply susan

    Forgot to add big hugs to you, wish you were here and we could have proper chat and you could lie back on my comfy couch and put your feet up x

    April 25, 2011 at 9:07 am
    • Reply laury

      big hugs right back acha 😉 thanks so much!!!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:45 pm
  • Reply Kat

    Sorry to hear about the tough time girl, but you are INCREDIBLE and you are going to rock it hard and whip yourself back in to tip top shape I just KNOW it!! Like I have said numerous times you are SUCH an inspiration for me. I dont have any examples like you in my life and you are so strong and firm in your beliefs and what you are doing. You will be a GREAT mother. You have taught me so so much about myself, I feel as if I am almost ready to have a baby myself!! (ok, I said ALMOST) 😉
    Love you girl, Hang in there!!

    April 25, 2011 at 9:32 am
    • Reply laury

      this made me smile, Kat. ALMOST ready, huh 😉

      April 25, 2011 at 1:46 pm
  • Reply Annie @ findingfitness-daybyday

    You can do it! You are such an inspiration and I’m not even pregnant! When feeling too tired or lazy to work out or eat healthy I remember that Laury is pregnant, battling crazy hormones and awful side effects and STILL works out.You are going to bounce back from your pregnancy faster than Heidi Klum (and look much prettier too 🙂 ) Breakdowns make us human and sometimes there really is nothing better than a pity party. Just think by Mother’s Day you’ll be holding beautiful baby Ella in your arms!

    April 25, 2011 at 9:48 am
    • Reply laury

      You are awesome. haha. Thanks so much!!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:46 pm
  • Reply Jessica@ Fruit and Veggie Tales

    First before I forget….the weather is just terrible! lol It’s going to rain until Friday and has been raining since last Thursday night plus STRONG storms are coming….freaking out a little! Ok, anyway…. always felt better after venting as well and I am glad that made you feel better too! I remember when I was pregnant with my first baby and she was born 3 days after my ‘due date’….I was sooooo depressed the day after she was due. No matter what I just couldn’t help but being anxious, frustrated, upset, feeling like my body was just not going to work, all of the ‘normal’ 10 months preggo stuff. Even those feelings are part of the process, it’s best to just let your body feel them! :o) I read a lot more the second time around and also found out that the average pregnancy is actually 40 weeks and 6 days (which doesn’t help your feelings now, I know :-/ ) So when I went into labor the day my son was ‘due’ I was really excited but then it stopped (just like yours on Easter) and he came a week later after only 2 hours of active labor! Your body is an awesome machine and I have no doubts that it made pregression yesterday and all of those times you have felt ‘labor!’ Think of it like popcorn….when you pop popcorn there are some that ‘pop’ early, the majority pop sometime near the end of cooking but there are always a few that don’t pop until you are pouring the bag into the bowl! This probably doesn’t help you now but I just didn’t want you to feel like your labor was false ( it IS working!) or that your feelings/anxieties were insignificant! Try not to beat yourself up about how much you are eating following your pregnancy either, breastfeeding requires some serious fuel and you will be surprised how fast your body will recover! I hope you get some sleep and relief soon! Can’t wait for you to snuggle your little one! Oh, you should read this article! http://birth-smart.com/2011/04/21/chance-or-choice/ haha, ok I’m done! 😉

    April 25, 2011 at 10:00 am
    • Reply laury

      Sorry about the weather, wow 🙁

      Thanks so much for sharing your experience. It sucks how it works with the 40 weeks plus, huh? I like the popcorn analogy. I do get a little excited even if it’s not “real” labor because I know it HAS to mean she’s getting ready! Thanks so much for the article….I am obsessed with all things pregnancy related reading these days!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply Jennifer @ Evolving Well

    Hey Laury! Wow, I’m so sorry that you’re having these ups and downs. I can only imagine. Remember that all the breathing that Nicole has taught you can be quite helpful when going through tough moments like this. Breathing can be so wonderful to help center you and uplift your spirits.

    Hang in there…you’ll be meeting such a special person so very soon! Sending you much love!

    April 25, 2011 at 10:29 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Jen. Hanging in. Nicole was so wonderful I am going to miss that class. She did teach a lot of valuable lessons I KNOW will be helpful!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:49 pm
  • Reply Suzanne Williams

    Hi there,
    I appreciate your honesty and I’m glad it helped you feel a bit better. Keep going, Ella is almost here. I think we all are glad to hear the truth. You can’t expect to perfect and positive all the time. We need to hear it. Thank you and Good luck!
    Suzanne Williams

    April 25, 2011 at 10:34 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Suzanne 🙂

      April 25, 2011 at 1:49 pm
  • Reply Katie

    We’re here for your rants, the best thing is to get it out.
    I’ve never been pregnant, but I can totally understand your thoughts. I won’t pretend to give advice, but from what I know you are stong and healthy, and you will be after Ella is born too.

    Hang in there!

    April 25, 2011 at 10:46 am
    • Reply laury

      You guys are the best 🙂

      April 25, 2011 at 1:50 pm
  • Reply Caree @ Fit-Mama

    Hang in there Laury!!! You are doing a great job and you WILL lose your baby weight in NO time. Eat those desserts and don’t feel guilty for it! You are doing SOOO much better with generally eating healthier and working out than I did with my first pregnancy and I was back to my pre baby weight in 6 weeks. If you are planning on breastfeeding, it will help your uterus go back to its orginial size faster and will help you shed the pounds faster too. BUT you look absolutely amazing for 39.5 weeks and since you are so fit, your body will pop back to pre baby shape seriously in no time. You will soon forget how hard this time was when you are finally holding baby Ella in your arms!!! you can do this!! 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 11:13 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, girl. You look amazing!!!!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:50 pm
  • Reply Julie (A Case of the Runs)

    You are not wrong to feel these things… thank you for being honest about that. The home stretch seems so hard for most women. Please don’t be so hard on yourself. We all admire your strength and know that you will come out of this just fine — even if it doesn’t seem that way right now. Your readers are still here and still interested in all your journeys!

    April 25, 2011 at 11:22 am
  • Reply Carrie

    I can completely understand where you are coming from! I am 8 months pregnant and have felt the same things you are feeling. I have ups and downs and as time goes by, it seems like there are more downs than ups. 🙁 I also made the mistake of trying on shorts from last summer. They had a stretchy waist and I thought I would give them a try- bad idea! I can’t imagine that every single pregnant woman -regardless of how healthy their body image is- hasn’t felt like we feel. Last month I gained 7 lbs when I went to the doctor. While I weight myself and had a general idea of how much I gained, it was still really hard to hear it from the doctor. I felt ashamed and like I had ‘let myself go.” It seems like a day doesn’t go by that I wake up and weigh more than I did the day before. 🙁 It is scary to go through SO many changes and it has to be natural to wonder how or if our bodies will ever get back to the same place. You have been active into your 39th week- amazing- so I do not think you’ll have to worry one bit about that!

    Now, I highly encourage you to go and get at least a couple of things to wear. You need to be comfortable girlfriend! Here is a link for some awesome cheap dresses I got at Target: http://www.target.com/Kimono-Dresses-Clothing-Womens/b/ref=sc_iw_r_2_0_256138011?node=1290285011. I realize you probably are saving money and don’t want to buy any “maternity” clothes here, but you’ll want to be sure to have something that is comfortable for when you have her. As I’ve heard, I will still be looking quite pregnant for a while and I am not playing around when it comes to having comfy, big enough clothes. Since I know I am probably going to be bigger for a while, I just plan on wearing my maternity clothes all summer, regardless of whether I start losing weight right away or not. Having clothes that fit and are comfortable has made me feel much better despite all of the increases in my weight. Those dresses aren’t even maternity and are so light and easy to throw on. I wish we lived closer and we could go on a shopping/eating pregnancy day! 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 11:23 am
    • Reply laury

      I hate to use the term “misery loves company” because I hate that we ALL have to go through this…but thanks for sharing. It makes me feel better to know I am not alone. Even though I can only imagine EVERY woman goes through this at some point in their pregnancy. I think from month 8 on it’s the hardest! You are so right, I just need to go and buy some moo moo’s haha. Thanks for the Target link…I will definitely want just comfy stuff that covers me up for the next few months!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:52 pm
  • Reply Jenny (Fit Girl Foodie)

    I’m so sorry you’re going through these emotional breakdowns but don’t worry you have such a big support system behind you and it will all be over soon. The weight gain will go away sooner than you know and everything will get better. Sending you warm wishes and virtual hugs!!
    xoxo

    April 25, 2011 at 11:41 am
    • Reply laury

      thanks, girlie. Hugs right back 🙂

      April 25, 2011 at 1:52 pm
  • Reply Jennifer (The Gourmetour)

    You look beautiful and I could only hope to look like you do now when I am pregnant. Just remember that your body has a million things going on right now, so it is only normal to feel uneasy and unbalanced.
    I heard a really valuable piece of advice this weekend while I was jean shopping and feeling AWFUL.
    No one will ever see what you see when you look at yourself because you are enduring 2 sensory things at once.
    No one can ever feel the way you feel when they are looking at you. You, however, see what you feel.

    I hope I explained that in the most effective way, but when this woman explained this to me I truly felt at ease. She is so right. You feel with your body AND emotions. Don’t let yourself get down, your family is about to expand and you will gain a new perspective on life and what’s important to worry about.

    You’re the best!

    April 25, 2011 at 12:02 pm
    • Reply laury

      You are too sweet, thanks. I never heard that before it is helpful. Horrible what us women do to ourselves and that we can’t just see things as they are.

      April 25, 2011 at 1:53 pm
  • Reply Lee-ann

    Your post has actually made me smile a liitle! I am really hoping your meltdown is what my friends would call ‘the arse’ (not sure if you use the word arse in the the US but if you are arsey you are angry, stroppy & fed up. Arse is another word for your bottom!)

    My friends would say having the arse might be a very good indicator that labour is imminent. I hope so even though most babies are born at 40+8 to first time mum and I always predict arrival dates for then.

    April 25, 2011 at 12:07 pm
    • Reply laury

      🙂

      I have used “arse” a lot but never in that context. Very interesting, haha. Yea, I am hoping all this means she is NOT going to be late, but unfortunately us first timers are more likely to go past the DD!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:54 pm
  • Reply Leila @ Spinach and Skittles

    Oh hun, don’t beat yourself up! I think you’re putting so much pressure on yourself to be a good role model for pregnancy after ED. No worries, you’re rockin it! No one expects you to be perfect. Just keep listening to your body. It wants carbs and dessert, it’s okay! Ella is lucky to have such a positive role model for her mom. No need to beat yourself up or fear about what your eating/exercising habits will be like after she is born. It will all fall into place. You’re a smart and healthy well rounded gal, those aspects of your life won’t go away. It just may take time, be patient 🙂
    Easter was nice for us. The sun finally came out this weekend after SNOW last week!

    April 25, 2011 at 12:25 pm
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Leila 🙂

      So glad you had a nice Easter..but SNOW! Yikes! Hope the sun stays out!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:55 pm
  • Reply Lori

    When I gained more weight toward the end the pediatrician that I had chosen for my baby said it was storing up weight that would be converted when nursing the baby.
    My baby weight was gone in 6 months in a safe gradual decrease. And I wasnt as health conscious as you are…everything will be fine.
    ((((big hugs)))
    Lori

    April 25, 2011 at 12:31 pm
    • Reply laury

      That’s helpful! Thanks!!! hugs right back!

      April 25, 2011 at 1:55 pm
  • Reply Sandy

    Hey Laur,
    I don’t know what to do or say to convince you of how wonderful you’ve handled pregnancy or how beautiful you continue to look. There comes a point in all pregnancies (39 wks) when we’re done, over it, cooked, finished. That is why we then give birth! I can’t tell you how to feel right now but I can ask you try to stay focused on the task at hand, Ella’s birth, and to reassure you that all your fears, worries and POUNDS will all slip away quickly and the memories of these last few weeks will fade softly into the sunset as you gaze into your little’s girl’s eyes.
    Hang in there. I’ve got a whole list of veggie dinners lined up to cook for you when you come home from the hospital. (Stew for Michael!) Can’t wait to wait on you and hold my new baby!
    xo

    April 25, 2011 at 1:11 pm
    • Reply laury

      🙂

      I know none of it will matter anymore once she is here…she’s gotta get moving!!!
      xxoo

      April 25, 2011 at 1:56 pm
  • Reply Kate

    You are almost there! Don’t worry about the weight gain…if it makes you feel any better, I was worried about the same things…and guess what? I weigh less now (after having two babies) than I did before I had my kids. The weight will come off easily, especially if you are active and eat well (like you do!) So no worries! Don’t be so hard on yourself!

    April 25, 2011 at 1:15 pm
    • Reply laury

      I hope I am one of those women like you 🙂 I will be happy with pre-baby weight though, I’m not picky 😉

      Thanks, girl.

      April 25, 2011 at 1:56 pm
  • Reply Stephanie

    Nonnas always make the best food, don’t they?
    Also, OMG we have the same birthday! =)
    Don’t be too hard on yourself about your body. You’re beautiful and perfect no matter what – believe it! You’ll get back to where you’re supposed to be when it’s supposed to happen, so don’t stress about it. Try to put your energy in a good positive place instead of worrying about things out of your control.

    April 25, 2011 at 1:35 pm
    • Reply laury

      Nonna’s are just the best. Same birthday AND you have a Nona…twins 🙂

      April 25, 2011 at 1:57 pm
  • Reply Lisa

    Good luck! It has to happen soon—the date is too coincidental 🙂

    My birthday is july 26th…maybe she’ll be a 26th baby!

    April 25, 2011 at 2:43 pm
  • Reply Sophia @ Raven Waves

    Don’t get down on yourself for feeling this way, girl! I think it’s natural. But I hope you know that you are beautiful, no matter if you are not pregnant, 2 months pregnant or plus 9 months pregnant! Keep your head up!! 🙂 And once you’re baby girl gets here, things will be a million times more amazing!

    April 25, 2011 at 2:53 pm
  • Reply La.

    Virtual hug sent your way!!!! Myth #1: You won’t have any time to workout. Ha, Ella will sleep ALL THE TIME! You will be fine. AND you can work out when she’s awake because ALL she wants to do is stare at Mama. It’s a wonderful gift. I totally think you are an inspiration and I LOVE your honesty. And I believe it WILL get better. Prayers that she comes SOON!

    April 25, 2011 at 2:59 pm
    • Reply laury

      I m not worried about the time as much as I am the exhaustion! I hope she sleeps all the time!! That would be amazing 🙂 Thanks, girl!

      April 25, 2011 at 3:08 pm
  • Reply Charlie

    So sorry you’re not feeling great! It will soon be over and everything went well most of the time! You are a great example for pregnant women. Even thought you might eat less healthy now, you maintained a healthy diet most of the time and continued exercising throughout pregnancy. You should be proud of yourself!

    April 25, 2011 at 3:13 pm
  • Reply Shayla

    You are so strong and beautiful and I know you may have those fears now, heck I do and I’m not even pregnant yet, but you’ve had such a healthy beautiful pregnancy and I (we) all know that you’ll be fine and everything will be ok. I’ve talked with lots of women who have said that they’ve bounced right back, and I’m sure you will too. And if not right away, don’t stress about it and let it happen when you’re body wants it to happen. You will have an amazing baby girl to look at everyday and you will appreciate how your body created this beautiful healthy baby girl. I’m sure she’ll come soon and good luck to you…remember you’re beautiful, healthy, and will be such a wonderful role model for your baby girl 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 3:26 pm
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, Shayla! You are absolutely right. I just need to take it all in and relax! We all have our moments though, right? 😉 Thanks for the encouraging words!

      April 25, 2011 at 9:13 pm
  • Reply Mary @ Bites and Bliss

    OMG!! She’s going to come any minute now! I’m fully expecting the next post to be a “She’s here!!!!” post :D:D:D

    April 25, 2011 at 4:40 pm
  • Reply melissa @ the delicate place

    oh hun….hold on! you’re SOOOOOO close! please don’t beat yourself up about the LBS! i am so sure they will come off quickly as you’ve been active your whole pregnancy! it’s super hot right now, i walked home from work and am a sweaty beast!

    April 25, 2011 at 6:16 pm
  • Reply christy

    i totally hit that meltdown point too. i was 5 days past due date, gained 3 lbs in that final week (my mom said it was because i ate too much?!!), it was mid-July and we dont have airconditioning in our house, no clothes fit, and every single woman in my family has always given birth at least 2 weeks early. the waiting was the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do!!!!!!! just not knowing is a killer! one day the baby will just come, totally on the day you least expect, and all will be right with your world! (well you’ll be sleep deprived for the next 2 years or so, so you definitely arent out of the water for meldowns quite yet. i just had one last week! heheheheh). GOOD LUCK!!! HOPEFULLY THIS IS THE LAST WE HEAR FROM YOU UNTIL THE BIRTH ANNOUNCEMENT. 😉

    April 25, 2011 at 6:29 pm
  • Reply Morgan

    Oh, my sweet sweet friend! Im sorry you are feeling “not yourself” but do you blame yourself. You have to give yourself a little slack. I mean, us girls when were pregnant, its a massive change to your body, especially at 10 months and ready to deliver any day now. Of course you are going to feel huge and uncomfortable and irritable slightly, which translates to a less positive attitude in other areas of your life. When I am felling less good in general, it crosses over to how I feel I look, how good of a mom/wife I feel I am, and my outlook on being able to “do it all” . It s so hard at the end. But trust me when I say that you are SUCH a beautiful pregnant girl! Look at your pics you had done. I mean, how often do you see someone looking so good when they are pretty much ready to deliver??? But it is all such normal feelings your are having. And I always feel that those feelings intensify because i am just nervous “in general” for the whole thing. Adding another baby. its a life changing thing and you are just feeling that you are on the cusp of it all. Almost there. You will be so amazed after she is born. You will have such an appreciation for your body. And you will have someone who you will love so much more than you love yourself, and it will make you the best Mom and best person you have ever been in your life. You will want to be the best for her. (and I know you will!)
    And with your knowledge on eating right and exercise, your body will bounce back quickly. You honestly dont have to worry. Positive thoughts=positive actions in life. And you are amazing! I am just waiting for the moment you have her and to hear yours and Michaels reactions to her. I know how it feels, so Im so so excited! I know you two will just be in LOVE with her. and you wont be able to get enough of her. The love for your children is like NONE OTHER. It is the ONE person where it really doesnt matter WHAT they do, you love them unconditionally. Her birth will bring so much Joy for you! And will change you forever! You will obviously. still be you, but like a said, an even better version of yourself because you will be living your life to make her life the best it can be. Its just the most rewarding thing you will ever do or experience.
    When I feel like Im having a meltdown, I get out a “gratitude journal” and I write down ALL of the things I can think of that I am so thankful for and that are so good in my life. I write down all the things I like about myself and all the things I think I am really good at. And then I make a list of new goals, of things I want to improve on. It helps me SO MUCH to see all of the good that surrounds me and what a capable person I really am and what good Job I do. You should totally try this! I promise you, it WIOLL make you feel a little better!!!
    Love you LOTS and I am waiting for the good news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    April 25, 2011 at 6:46 pm
    • Reply laury

      Thanks my love 🙂 I do feel MUCH better….the blog is a great resource for venting! Love your idea of a gratitude journal. I will definitely do that and recommend it to others!!!

      Hoping there’s some news SOON!!! I am going NUTS!! Lol. Love you lots! xxoo

      April 25, 2011 at 9:12 pm
  • Reply Pure2raw twins

    oh gosh girl hang in there, the baby will be here soon!!! And you WILL bounce back to your old self, I know you will. Stay strong!

    April 25, 2011 at 7:10 pm
  • Reply Shanna, like Banana

    You are doing a great job and it is to be expected that all of these thoughts will creep in now. You are ready to have this baby! You’ve been healthy and active and are going to have a healthy little girl as a result. Just a few more days….

    April 25, 2011 at 8:39 pm
  • Reply Melissa @ TryingToHeal

    Hang in there girl. I’m sure it’s almost the day! You will totally bounce back after your little one enters the world! It’ll know what to do!

    April 25, 2011 at 9:00 pm
  • Reply Tiffany @ Simply Shaka

    Thanks for being so open and candid. As someone who has lost a lot of weight but gained some back, I know the exact feeling (sans child in my belly of course) Soon little Ella will grace you, Michael and Munchkin with her presence and things will be back to normal! My best friend is pregnant and all her status updates are how miserable she is so if I read a pregnant lady is happy 24/7, I don’t believe it.

    PS-Please send Nona to my house to cook-kthx 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 9:15 pm
    • Reply laury

      Thanks, girl. Yes I was definitely NOT happy 24/7 just never bad enough that I felt I should complain (compared to others). Had it pretty good most of this pregnancy, the end it brutal though!

      Oh, and Nona is the BEST cook EVER! She seriously needs a Food Network show.

      April 25, 2011 at 9:27 pm
  • Reply kate@ahealthypassion

    You look amazing and breakdowns are a normal part of pregnancy, once your beautiful baby girl arrives it will be all worth it… hopefully the eggplant will help 🙂

    April 25, 2011 at 10:32 pm
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  • Reply Katharina

    Hey there!!! Oh wow I have to catch up. I remember when you first shared the news of your pregnancy and I was sooo excited for you. Now I can’t believe you are about to have your baby girl 😀 Ohhh I would not be able to eat that eggplant 🙁 Sadly, I found out that I am now allergic to it. Out of nowhere! but I guess that’s how allergies come up some times, right?

    Anyway, I’m glad that you were honest about your struggles. We’re human and that’s a part of life. The important thing is what we do to deal with them. Whatever way that helps you work through these bumps to help keep your mental well-being . It seems like you are taking a step towards that by acknowledging it! And you still are a role model 🙂 role models are people we can relate to and learn from the way they overcome hardships. It’s hard to look up to someone who never had to face an obstacle. Also, I am sure that there are some role models that you have in mind as well that you can look up to for post-pregnancy advice 🙂 how to balance your life with your wonderful new babygirl when she comes along! Actually, I have some women in mind that you can contact and ask them what they did 🙂

    Juli: http://puremamas.squarespace.com/

    and Cate: http://www.tribecayummymummy.com/

    XOXO, hope you’re feeling better!

    p.s. the weather is hot! but I’ll take it over cold weather any day lol.

    April 26, 2011 at 9:43 am
    • Reply laury

      Thanks for the links, girlie! Missed you 🙂

      April 26, 2011 at 12:18 pm
  • Reply Justine Cuny

    Hey there Laury,

    Reading your end-of-pregnancy-breakdown brought back some recent memories! Being the fit foodie that you are, rest assured that your body will look like it used to within a few short months. 🙂

    Over the years I also struggled with eating disorders / compulsive overexercising / body issues, so I wasn’t surprised when some of those feelings cropped up again during pregnancy and the post-partum period. I know that this will sound trite right now, but after you have Ella, you will be in such awe of what your amazing body just did that may never think about your body in the same way.

    After 6 months, I still sometimes get down on myself for not quite fitting into my pre-pregnancy clothes yet, but to cheer myself up, I think of all the amazing things my “imperfect” body has been able to do: compete as a gymnast, run a marathon, do a triathlon, do a fitness competition, complete basic training, grow a baby, birth a baby and now – feed a baby. When you think about it that way, you can forgive yourself for not “snapping back” to you pre-pregancy size right away. And, if you are kind to that amazing body of yours and return to your pre-pregnancy routine, it happen effortlessly!

    P.S. I’m sure this is the last thing on your mind, but sex is the only proven natural labor inducer. 🙂 Crossing my fingers to read a baby announcement tomorrow!

    April 26, 2011 at 3:58 pm
    • Reply laury

      Hey Justine. Thanks so much for sharing. You are amazing with everything you have done!!!! I keep telling Michael about that, but he’s too freaked out about the baby being “right there.” I will try anything….feeling up to it or not! Thanks again 🙂

      April 26, 2011 at 9:23 pm
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